Trying to juggle it all...

I wish I wrote on here more.  I wish I captured the little moments that I will want to remember.  But, instead, I feel like I am in the middle of a juggling act and at any moment, may drop something and be booed off stage.

Dawson is doing amazing.  It's been three months since his surgery and if you look at him, you'd never know.  His hair has almost grown in to cover the scar.  He is back to most all of his activities.  It's like nothing happened.  He is doing well in school.  I can't believe he is half way through 2nd grade.  Where is the time going?!  The best part about Dawson is you never know what he is going to say next.  I wish I had written them all down, but instead of being filled with sadness and regret, I will just make it a goal to be better at it.

Colton is doing great too.  Last weekend we went to Prescott for the tree lighting ceremony and during a snowball fight, Uncle Ken fell on him and broke his thumb, but that is just life and another little hiccup along the way.  It is his 6th broken bone and I am just wondering what number he is going for.  He is doing wonderful in school and just had his choir concert that made me smile to watch. 

Since going to work full time, I have pretty much felt like a crazy person most days.  I hate grocery shopping at night, I miss time with James and feel like a tornado went through my house.  On the flip side though, I love the kids I work with and it would break my heart if they didn't get help.  Overall, although I have always had an appreciation for my mom and working moms, it has opened my eyes just a little more to some of the sacrifices.  And it's hard at night when my kids want help with homework or reading and I am so burnt out that I just don't feel like it.  Luckily, I was blessed with James who goes above and beyond anything I could have ever imagined for a husband and a father and he helps me keep it together.

James is doing pretty good.  Work is good and he has stopped doing so much side work so he would have more time with his dad.  Right now his dad is in the hospital, 5 days post-surgery from having his lower jaw removed to try and beat cancer.  It is amazing what doctors can do and we are praying constantly that it was successful.  A couple of weeks ago, James went on his elk hunt without his dad.  That was the first time he ever went hunting without him and it was really difficult.  This entire process has been hard on him and I wish more than anything that I could make it better.

There are so many things I would like a do-over on, keeping up on my blog being one of them, but the past is the past and I can only look forward, so I am going to throw one more ball in the air, see if I catch it, and try to be better about catching life's moments.