So This Is Christmas

I have always liked John Lennon's "Happy Christmas."  Today as I look at my list of to-dos and the piles all over the house, I can't help but think of the lyrics.

So this is Christmas and what have you done?  Another year over and a new one just begun.  So happy Christmas, I hope you had fun.  The near and the dear one, the old and the young.

This was a weird Christmas.  My father-in-law is still recovering from his surgery and wasn't feeling well enough to come up.  It was the first time in 11 years that we haven't had everyone together on Christmas morning.  Then, the kids are finally at an age where all they wanted were expensive electronics, so a couple ipods, a nook, a video game, and a few miscellaneous items and that was all the presents.  Then there is the daunting facts that New Years is a week away and making you look back and evaluate last years' goals.  It's just been strange.

I have so many hopes for the next year.  So many changes I want to make within myself.  So many plans.  And yet, right now, I just feel stuck.  I feel like the list is so long and the goals are so big that I can't figure out where to start and so rather than start somewhere, I sit, frozen, being frustrated that I haven't begun. 

So next year when I hear, "So this is Christmas and what have you done?"  I hope to have answers I want to hear.  I hope that I figured out a place to start.  And I hope that I had a smile on my face along the way.